I can not sum up Bushido better than this.  If you feel this way, please come train.  This is from an old book called Giri that I happened to stumble upon once again.  Life is truly a circle. 

 "Aikido is a training of body and mind.  It is a discipline to be applied to every facet of one's existance.  It is a way of thinking, a plan for living and, above all, a way of developing morality.  Lacking these goals, all training is in vain;  no amount of fighting skill can ever compensate for a lack of character.  When you can hurt a man and don't, then you are worthy of the skill you carry around.  You can be trusted with it and that's your character, your strength."